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19 May 2010 @ 10:21 pm
So now begins the adjustment to getting cozy being a 5th wheel in the derby world. Fuckballs. I always felt sympathy for those doing just that - figuring out how to stay engaged with derby, one's team(s), and the league - while no longer being athletically of use.

JPR had an excellent point at our Supernovas mtng the other night - that some of the best things he learned about skating was when he was injured and had no choice but to just sit and observe - really see the game completely from an observer's viewpoint - not as a player's. And it was useful to the rest of the team to get that perspective as well.

But in the end - it's an immediate and fairly suckass break with your team. And I get it having been on the other side of it for so many skaters over the years who've gotten injured and been out of commission for awhile. And it's not about attention - I don't need attention for being fucking lame (literally - not metaphorically ;), it's that the main connecting thread of you to the rest of your mates is skating together as a team, and if you're not skating - well everyone else has got to keep focused on that and you're not part of that - so adios. And it's ok - is how it needs to be.

But in the meantime - I need to find ways to stay engaged and useful, without just taking up space. Not to mention staying on top of training and physical activity. Sure lots of things won't be limited - the whole rest of my damn body works just fine, thanks. But extended-time cardio is s/thing hard to accomplish without being able to run, skate, bike. Yeah - I'm a competitive swimmer and have already gotten back on that wagon this week - but it's sort of the only option for awhile.

Speaking of activity to keep me from turning zombie - today's activities included a mile walk with the pups (which is weak ass in terms of being of use for anything work-out wise - but as a means for loosening up the swelling and stiffness of my knee for now before surgery = good) and 45 of abs and weights at home. I never make time for weights at all - guess I'll have plenty of time for weights now ;).

Tomorrow morn - appt with doc to peruse MRI findings, and hopefully make a damn surgery appt, for like 2 weeks ago.
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freakchellefreakchelle on May 20th, 2010 03:38 am (UTC)
Ugh, just reading this is giving me flashbacks to the weeks immediately following me blowing out my knee in rugby.

Sadly, I don't think I was prepared/ aware of how big of a change it was going to be in my life. It lead to some nasty depression and all that fun stuff.

Thinking about you. Let me know if there's anything I can do.